Some tea please?                   It’s no request; you drink too much.
Get these done, baby?                   Done     always
                      like only a wife can do them—

some days now, years away from Us,                   the smell
of         armpits from dry-cleaned shirts weighing           a ton,
hanging from my stick arms, still hit me           and I hear

your questions.                   Baby, can we make love?
I’ve said Okay, sometimes adding Baby without love.
Words wouldn’t’t come.           How to tell the truth—

Beg you. Order you. Or place a written request
under your coffee mug one day at 5am:
                      Let me go, baby, will you?

Once, while attacking the walls, you screamed                   What
Do You Want.                   Silence can be a tireless stream.

I got the annulment. But             this dull ache sits in the small
of my small back.           From your finger prodding each day
before the birds could sing. You needed coffee or tea.

                      You had needs. There was no rest. And

I would’ve let the river swallow up my life
with you in a country where extremes are natural—
bitter winters and heartrending summers far from home.

But I learnt not to             because it was the river that did it
once upon a time, somewhere in Hong Kong.       Or maybe

it was the shrimp cakes and the cruise. Maybe the lightshow
locked arms with your domineering         and I had no clue.

After everything, baby, I can tell you all I’ve ever wanted
and couldn’t have was lightness             because somehow
I married you. Somehow I said Yes and a river was witness.